So, today is my last Monday in Valdosta with Blake. Knowing that I have to go back to Crestview, and leave him here is a little depressing. However, when I leave he will only have five months left in school here. I am really hoping that those months fly by. I know I will be busy getting back into the swing of things at school (then again, I haven't had much time to get OUT of the swing of things) and that will help to make time go by a bit faster. We have had a blast this summer just being together. I have been beating myself up for a few comments I have made to Blake. I have said a few times that we haven't "done" much and that I don't feel like we have had a summer. I feel bad because by saying this I am making reality the fact that being together isn't enough for me. I know...SHAME ON ME!! I need to make it known that I have loved being over here...even when we've only grabbed a bite to eat and gone to bed. Obviously we've done something to keep us busy, since I haven't blogged every week like I said I would. (HAHA) We have been able to be lazy, spend time without anyone needing our attention, watch movies, played games on Facebook (been nosy too!), lay in bed and talk about stupid stuff, laugh at each other, and we have even had some serious thinking/pondering/questioning time.
It has been a summer of growing for both of us. There are lots of emotions that rise to the surface when you are separated by miles, you are living on one income and a loan for school, Satan is throwing circumstances and opportunities for failure in your path, people begin to want your husband's attention for guy time or classmate time, and the insecurities of just being enough are more than evident. We are learning to work as a team more than ever before. We are about to face important
decisions as a couple. If we are being honest, we have made many of our
decisions, even in our marriage, trying to please others. Well, we are now at the point where we have to make our
decisions 100% based on US. Scary!! It is funny how at 16, you want to make your own
decisions because you can, but there is someone there to correct your mistakes; at 26, you make your own
decisions because you have to, and you must live with the mistakes. Blake will finish school in December and, soon after, will apply to the FAA. With the application, he will make the
decision to choose a location in the states...southeast. While waiting to be hired, he will be back in Crestview with me and, depending on the outlook of hiring, will make the
decision to either get a short-term job or not. We have already made the
decision to take whatever location is offered to get his foot in the door. Also, we have already made the
decision for me to teach the entire school year next year at Antioch. This probably means more separation time, while he goes to Oklahoma City for seven weeks of FAA training and then to his facility. The list goes on and on. Life is full of
decisions. We are learning, for the first time, the big lesson of making decisions for US. We are trusting in God for His guidance and faithfulness. This summer has given us time to search, pray, and discuss the future. We are grabbing each other by the hand and life by the horns.
Blake could actually pull this off (if he had a different wife)! 
