"Better than I"

Brother Paul asked me to sing this past Sunday, and so I prayed and prayed that God would give me the right song to share. I have the music for a song called "Better than I" by Joy Williams. I have only shared it once, at Woodlawn, about 5 years ago. The lyrics to this song, are a prayer of letting go of the "why's" in my life. Blake and I have had numerous "why's" in the past three years, and I thought that I was ready to share this song again as a testimony. I felt God telling me that this was the song he wanted me to sing. I listened to three other songs, trying to find something else that would be easier, better. But, Sunday morning, as I walked to the sound booth with three songs in my hand, I knew I HAD to sing "Better than I." The run-through went fine. There is one part toward the end that always gets me, and I thought I would be fine- no tears. HOWEVER, when I stood up to sing during the service, I let the first word out and the tears began to flow. I thought that maybe if I stopped, I could catch my breath, start again, and share my testimony clearly so that the words could easily be understood. So, take two- I stopped and asked the guys in the sound booth to start the song again. The music started, and I just began to cry as I sang. I closed my eyes, and prayed that it would reach those needing to hear. Through the entire song, I fought tears. God's presence was so strong! When I sang the last note, there were tears flowing from many sitting in the congregation as well. All I could do after I was finished was cry. Anyone who knows me an ounce, knew my cry, and they were right there with me. Through my struggles, I have prayed that I could say the words of this song/prayer-and mean them.
Even through tears, and even sometimes sobs, I can honestly say that I know He knows, and that all I need!

"Better than I" by Joy Williams

"I thought I did what's right.
I thought I had the answers.
I thought I'd chose the shortest road,
but that road brought me here.
So I put up a fight,
and told You how to help me.
Then just when I had given up,
the truth is coming clear.

For You know better than I,
You know the way.
I've let go the need to know why,
'Cause You know better than I.

If this has been a test,
I cannot see the reason.
But, maybe knowing, I don't know
is part of getting through.
I try to do what's best,
and faith has made it easy
to see the best thing I can do
is put my trust in You.

For You know better than I,
You know the way.
I've let go the need to know why,
'Cause You know better than I.

I saw a cloud, and thought it was the sky.
I saw a bird, and thought that I could follow.
But it was You who taught them how to fly.

If I let You reach me, will You teach me?

For You know better than I,
You know the way.
I've let go the need to know why,

I'll take what answers You supply-

'Cause You know better than I."


**All I need to know is that He already knows!!!